My boyfriend's sister is getting married and now I have to figure out what to wear. Church attire, I can pull off, wedding..............it's nothing but a pain in the but because all I have is this cute black and gray printed dress...I doubt that it's 'wedding' appropriate though...I'm going to go to celebrate a marriage, not go to a funeral. This is the dress I have: [link]

I have to talk to his mom...but does anyone think that is okay or should I try to convince my mom about letting me order a dress online? (which is $100 and has to be dry cleaned...I don't own things that need to be dry cleaned because everything goes in the washing machine). Any help? I don't want to look like the super weirdo white person in a group of darker skinned people...I need more sun.

I thought this was cute.

1. This survey gets a little personal; can you handle it?
Let’s see.

2. If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?
Garces.

3. Were you happy when you woke up today?
Yeah, I woke up on my own.

4. When were you on the phone last? And with who?
Yesterday with Joe.

7. What are you excited for?
My laptop!

8. What were you doing yesterday?
Went to Joe’s and hung out and slept on his bed for a bit while watching Alexander.

9. Honestly, who was the last person to tell you they love you?
Joe.

10. What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
Ice cream.

11. Have a best friend?
Yes I do!

12. Are you scared to fall in love?
No, I already am.

13. Do you think teenagers can be in love?
Not really, but there are rare occasions.

14. Last person you wanted to punch in the face?
My friend’s boyfriend.

15. What time is it right this second?
10:45

16. What do you want right now?
To be with Joe and sleeping all cuddled up under the blanket.

17. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Stacy and Miss Christa

18. Are you single/taken/heartbroken/or confused?
Taken.


19. When was the last time you cried?
The other day when I got upset at my dad.


20. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
It’s a day by day thing.


21. Do you find it hard to trust others?
Until they break my trust, no.

22. How fast does your mind change?
Quite fast.


23. I bet you miss somebody right now.
I really do.


24. Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
Yeah.

25. Why do you think so many people cheat?
Because people rush into things instead of thinking logically and when things get tough, they rather move on than work it out, plus the morality of people has dropped so much that it’s sad.

26. Tell me what's on your mind?
Joe, college, Voltron, future.

27. What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
Bloomsburg Fair, birthday, Joe’s sister’s wedding, college.

28. Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
Everyday, I love Joe’s shirt. ^^

29. When did you last talk to your number 1 top friend?
Just now.

30. When is your next road trip?
No clue.

31. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell anything to?
Yeah.

32. How's your heart?
As far as I know, it’s good.

33. Have you ever felt like you weren't important?
Who hasn’t?

34. Do you think somebody's in love with you?
Yup!

35. What are you planning on doing after this?
Relaxing.

36. Next time you will kiss someone?
When I see Joe.

37. Have you told anybody you loved them today?
Yup, Joe

38. Who do you not get along with?
Mainly my friend’s boyfriend.

39. What does you 3rd recent text say?
I can’t.~Joe (he had to go to school)

40. What are you wearing right now?
Black, white, and orange orchestra t-shirt and jeans.

41. You're locked in a room with the person you last kissed, how is it?
Pretty damn good! ^^

42. When's the last time you had a grilled cheese?
The other night.

43. What's your fave boy and girl name right now?
boy- Ramses Issac/Ptolemy Alexander
girl- Sarah Isadora/Neysalina Alexandra

44. How did you feel when you woke up?
Great!

45. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
Not really.

46. Do you crack your knuckles
No

47. What were you doing yesterday at midnight?
Talking to Alex.

48. What are your LEGAL initials?
AML

49. Whos the first B in your contacts?
No one.


50. when was the last time you laughed really hard?
Last night when Joe’s brother walked in on us kissing.

51. Your number 1 top friend walks out of your life, do you go after them?
Yeah! He’s my one and only love!

52. Last awkward moment?
Read #50

53. Are you afraid of the dark?
Kind of.

54. Do you have good vision?
Up close, yeah.

55. Have you ever kissed in the rain?
Yup.

56. Have you ever slapped someone?
Yeah

57. Are you Irish?
I don’t got red highlights for nothing!

58. Do you use chap stick?
All the time during the winter.

59. Do you have any scars?
A lot.

60. Is there someone you will never forgive?
Yeah.

61. Are you dating the person you last held hands with?
Yup!

62. Name the last person to text you?
Joe.

63. Would you marry someone 8 years older than you?
Not really, it really depends.

64. Can you go in public looking like you do?
Yeah

65. Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a A?
Yeah…on the cheek if that counts.

66. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
I kind of am a bed hog…depends on how I sleep.

67. What’s the first thing you'll do on your wedding day?
Wake up, get ready, and be all giddy and such.

68. Whats one huge pet peeve?
Horrid grammer.

69. Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
Yeah

70. Do you miss the way things used to be?
A little bit.

71. Has anyone ever told you they're in love with you?
Everyday! ^^

72. Music you're thinking of right now?
Creek Mary’s Blood- Nightwish

73. Want someone back in your life?
Kind of, but bringing back the dead is a gross thing to do.

74. Will tomorrow be better than today?
A little bit, I’ll be alone for six hours, which is super nice.

75. What’s the color of you’re shirt you are wearing?
Black, orange, and white…what? I went to Northampton, where it’s Halloween everyday!

76. Has anyone ever sang or played music for you personally
Yeah, my little cousin sings songs about me, I adore little kids.

77. Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
Yeah.

78. Is there anyone who understands your relationship status?
Yuppers!

79.Are you a naturally happy person? Or is your happiness forced?
Naturally happy.

80. Is there anyone you wish would fall in love with you?
He already has. ^^

Sunday, I began to get everything planned out and it seemed to be becoming a good week. So yesterday the hospital called and said that my Uncle Tom was in the hospital, nothing new, he had been in a wheel chair all of his life and was mentally retarded and had cerebral palsy as well and had gotten pneumonia back in September and mom had him put on a trache so that he wouldn't die, causing a lot of problems between my uncles, me, and dad with her decision because we all thought she should have just let him die, but it was too late to undo it then on top of that he had gotten MRSA. Then he went into the hospital again and they had to put him on life support and he became a piece of rotting flesh in a nursing home. He was so doped up on drugs, he didn't know who my parents were, but this phone call was different. They said that he wasn't doing well and they would watch him. Then they called again and told mom that his health was failing and there was nothing they could do to keep him alive and mom did the right thing, she put him on a morphine drip and took him off the vent around 10 last night. He died 2:20 in the morning and he let me know he died by a firefly. This firefly landed on the wall and then flew into my hand and I petted it and then it flew away and I haven't seen it since (which is kind of odd since bugs like light and the only light that was on was the light in the dining room where my computer is). So this week, on Thursday there is going to be the viewing (not going because I don't want to see him like that) and then there is going to be a funeral on Friday...but on top of that is three parties, the first one on Friday later in the day. My choir party (Friday), my friend Alex's party (Saturday), and my own party (Sunday), then Monday starts Vacation Bible School. Thank God for Joe or I'd be falling apart and be a mess like my mom.

So I graduated last Saturday, the 13th and I was all excited. Around my birthday, dad asked me if I wanted a party for my birthday and I said, "No Dad, instead of having a birthday party and a graduation party since things are tight, could I please have a graduation party instead?" My dad agreed. So today when I asked him, "Dad, could I have a graduation party? I picked a date and it's perfect, you're off, it's in the end of July so the farm shows haven't started yet and we'll have a bbq type thing. That sound good?" and he takes one look at me and says, "No." and I said, "why?" and he goes, "you don't deserve one." and I said, "but you promised me!" and he goes, "I don't care." and it pissed me off so I left the dinner table and went in my room and watched Reba and I heard my dad yell, "I don't care, not in my house and if she doesn't like it, she can leave but her clothes stay here, I'll give her a sheet," and then he banged on my door and told me to get out and finish my supper and I told him I wasn't hungry and he said that I could starve for all he cared and after he went down stairs, I came out and my mom (who is normally the asshole) heated up my dinner plate for me and said, "I don't care, we're having a party. You struggled so hard for the grades you got and you deserve it, just clean up so that he shuts up." My MOM was being NICE!! This is the woman who told me she wishes she would have had an abortion than have had me!!

So tomorrow, I'm going to get a big box and get rid of crap I don't want anymore. I'm gonna start with my closet and then the dog crate full of my papers from school and then my room. Then I'm going to call my Uncle Mark and see if I can arrange a deal with him for moving in with him. I just am so frustrated with my dad. His back pain is so bad that not even the prescription pain killers can touch it. He wants to go for the surgery, but he wants to wait until he's 55, which means he has one more year. I can't handle him anymore. I used to love my dad because him and I always clicked, we were a team, but of lately, he's become increasingly nastier and it's to the point where I want Joe around all the time because if Joe is there, my dad acts like the man I know him as, not the angry man in pain. I hate the man he is because he scares me and gets me upset and worried that he's getting Alzheimer's. I don't know who he is anymore, he scares me.

For happier things, Joe's older sister is getting married!! She found a nice guy with a job and a future. Joe is upset because he now has to wear a tux more than twice. -_- He looks so good in a tux though, that's why it irks me. He's a funny boy.


[link] Kuolema Tekee Taiteilijan- Nightwish Awesome Finnish metal band and a beautiful song that calms me.

Prom day started off with a loud.....B A N G ! ! at 7 in the morning, because the jerk who is building next to me had someone come out there and do construction at that ungodly hour of the morning.........on a SATURDAY!! Anyways, this allowed me to play on the computer a bit, clear my media card, put my battery in my camera, and mentally prepare myself for the day. We then went up to the hairdresser and Tara did my hair. She then stuck her tongue out for the picture of her and I after my hair was done. Then we came home, ate lunch and the finished cleaning and I did my make-up. Around 3 I did my make-up and gave my hair some last minute gluing (aka industrial strength runway model curl booster hair spray, it cost 10 bucks but it's lasted me three years)and got dressed and waited for half an hour until Joe came to pick me up.

So finally he came and I waited in my bathroom for permission to make my entrance...well...it was...less than elegant. You see...I tripped and stumbled, but I caught myself. Thing is, his parents were video taping it (yay me...this will now and FOREVER be on tape). Then I couldn't stop giggling because I don't do well under such attention, I'm not used to it, plus I felt funny being in a dress in front of his parents...I like my jeans and t-shirt. Plus, Joe was, oh my, was he so handsome!! I love him in a tux, he looks sooooooooo nice. ^^ (Plus the tie is an added bonus, it can be used as a leash to make him behave).

Anyways, after pictures, we went to prom and it was nice and the food was good. The dancing was sooooo much fun, I spent most of my time dancing with Joe and a few of my friends. It was an all around good time, except for the cramped feet. We ended up pinning my dress up so that I could dance because it was a bit toooo long.

Joe and I then went to an after prom party at the school and we had fun in the moon bounce, the jousting ring (which wasn't much fun because I got hit really really hard in the head and it gave me an instant migraine), Guitar Hero, Rockband, Volleyball and Basketball, cards, and they had movies. I tried to take a nap but it was way too loud and I really wanted Joe to stay with me until I fell asleep, but he wanted to do other stuff so I let him. I then talked with one of the ladies there for a few hours since I couldn't sleep and then when I did have Joe with me, he wanted to do stuff so I gave up on sleep and by breakfast, at 5 am, I was cranky because of lack of sleep. Then I was just about to fall asleep when one of my friend's hit me and I flipped shit and then I started to cry because I was a bitch and Joe just hugged me and when I got cranky with him he just hugged me and tried to make me go back to sleep. I was just about to fall asleep right before my mom came to pick us up and on the way home as I cried because I missed Joe (I get very very emotional when I don't sleep for 24 hours) and I missed the 8:00 service because I was out like a light around 7-ish when we got home. So I was woken up and dragged out of bed at 8:30 so that I could go to Sunday School and dress up as a dog, even though I wanted to sleep. Then after Sunday School my parents went up to this breakfast and I slept in the car because I wasn't hungry. Then when we got home around noon, I waited until Joe's father came and got the tux and he said the same thing everyone else said, "you look hungover." So after he left, I was going to watch a movie, but I fell asleep for five hours. I still feel like the living dead and I'm now going through my pictures and submitting a few.