So...things between Joe and I are...sweet. No longer do I fear things that once scared me, I think I might now face my fear of driving. He's a sweetheart. Things are slow between us but we're gonna start taking things a bit faster. Tonight, he asked if he could hug me tomorrow...normally I ask him if I can hug him. Plus, we're gonna hold hands...I'm sooooo giddy it's...embarrassing! I've never felt this safe with someone, then again, there are reasons that I know of that deepen the safety and bond between him and I that I won't discuss.

I'm not letting it go to my head, I'm just amazed...him and I...war and peace. He's someone I'd never choose on my own...but...him and I...I can see this working. Now...to get some sleep!"

I LOST IT ALL!! My hard drive is SHIT. Which means I lost all my music, my stories, my pictures, I lost it all.

To those I sent my stories to, if you happened to save them...please could you email them to me? Especially like my 60 page story?

I should have listened to my dad he told me to back it all up but I knew better, shows me not to listen to him, stupid faulty Compaq piece of crap hard drive!

My whole graduation project is GONE. *sighs* This sucks...at least I have Joe to make me smile with jokes.

I did it! I hugged Joe! I waited until the last second right before we left to go for the buses. It was a quick hug and he brought his arm up to hug me back and I pulled back because we were leaving and I just smiled at him and he said, "We're gonna talk about this tonight." *is excited to see where this will go*

His friend said he's in shock but happy and is nervous.

ALSO...I'm going to EGYPT!! I got the down payment from my dad and all I have to do is write the check.

On a sadder note, my pc, my ONE YEAR OLD pc DIED last night after I got done talking to Joe...thing is...it has ALL of my stories on it. So, someone better figure out how to get my crap back so I can finish writing them.

Yesterday I hung out with the guy I like and we took a long walk and just talked. It was raining and of course, I had to be silly and walk through puddles. I was having fun. He laughed at me because I refused to put my hood up and my hair got soaked. The lower half of my jeans were soaked too because I jumped in a puddle and he asked "Are you happy now?" and I smiled and nodded my head. I was happy. I was hanging out with him and talking. I like spending time with him.

Him and I are trying to keep everything on the DL because we're not sure of what's going on between us. Though my choir director and my mom call him my 'boyfriend' I don't know if we are. And my one girl friend has implanted the idea of hugging him...just to see what he would say...hehe. I was gonna hug him, but I decided against it because Mr. Pain In The Ass was there and so was a teacher...who we both know. Yeah...so...now to just find a way to hug him without people seeing and making him uncomfortable...hehe. I don't mind hugging people...but I...I don't know...I feel shy about hugging him.

So...my plan is to hug him before anime club when no one is there yet, we're always there early. And if it's awkward, I'll randomly offer a cookie to the first person who walks in and afterwards, I'm winging it big time.

[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[X] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[X] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ]I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercing.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[X] I've sworn at my parents.
[x] I've run away from home.
[x] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[X] I'm in school.
[ ] I have a job.
[X] I've fallen asleep at work/school. (I was on vikadin...that shit is strong)
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school. (pneumonia)
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[x] I've stolen something from my job.
[ ] I've been fired.


Embarrassment
[ ] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[X] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[X] I've snorted while laughing.
[X] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[X] I was born with a disease/impairment. (Yup, I have hemochromatosis...high blood iron)
[X] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[x] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[x] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.


Traveling
[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[ ] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.


Experiences
[ ] I've gotten lost in my city.
[ ] I've seen a shooting star.
[ ] I've wished on a shooting star
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[ ] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[ ] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[X] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[x] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[x] I've crashed a car. (does a tractor count?)
[x] I've been Skiing. (I fell a lot)
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[X] I've played a prank on someone.
[ ] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[X] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[ ] I'm single.
[x] I'm in a relationship. (kind of...)
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[X] I miss someone right now.
[X] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[X] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[X] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[X] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[X] I've had a crush on a teacher. (I was in grade school and he
[ ] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger. (I had to when we were playing clue)
[ ] I have kissed a stranger

Honesty/Crime
[X] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[X] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[X] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[X] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[X] I've cheated while playing a game.
[X] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[x] I've witnessed a crime.
[x] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
[X] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick. (they're vitamin C)
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[X] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[ ] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[ ] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[x] I've woken up crying.


Death and Suicide
[X] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[x] I've seen someone dying.
[x} Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[x] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[x] I've planned my own suicide. (realized it wasn't worth it, live is too beautiful to forfeit)
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[X] I own an iPod or MP3 player. [Its LOVE!]
[x] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga. (Voltron = ((especially a certain Blue Lion pilot named Sven and a Black Lion pilot named Keith)))
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random
[x] I can sing well. [in my head or on a good day]
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[ ] I watch the news. (same shit, different day)
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[X] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[X] I curse regularly.
[X] I sing in the shower. [and in public]
[ ] I am a morning person.
[x] I paid for my cell phone ring tone. (Seminole Uprising-FSU's theme)
[x] I'm a snob about grammar. (Yet I say ya'll & ain't)
[x] I am a sports fanatic. (orange hair)
[x] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[x] I bake well.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue Green
[ ] I've worn pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[X] I know how to shoot a gun.
[x] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[X] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[ ] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I love white chocolate
[X] I bite my nails.
[X] I play video games.
[X] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names. [I'm am that nickname guy ]
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[X] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

[X] All of those are answered honestly [Would I lie to you?]

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Things are going well between the guy I like and I. Hehe...we were flirting online...yes, we're pathetic...but he's so adorable when he's nervous. He's a better typer than he is speaker. He's like me. We're a like in a lot of ways but we're different too.